|
[Monday||March 17th, 2008 @ 7:26pm] |
GAH I'm such an idiot when i think
of what i've said to you
and how i put everything
and i meant every word of it but
i feel stupid for even saying it
dont tell me you care.
it's a lie
|
|
|
[Monday||March 17th, 2008 @ 12:10am] |
mmm so much has happen
and i'm weak from it
|
|
|
[Saturday||June 23rd, 2007 @ 1:14am] |
when i come here it's beautiful.
the paints not pealing.
the kids aren't crying.
it's mine.
and i have it.
whole.
no pieces left over.
no rethinking a thing.
i can sit here and write.
i love it.
|
|
|
[Wednesday||June 6th, 2007 @ 1:42pm] |
i love not getting on livejournal
for weeks at a time then randomly
getting on it =]
|
|
|
[Wednesday||February 7th, 2007 @ 9:10pm] |
today a girl testified* in youth group
that she was on the verge of killing herself
before she found us and we became friends.
She said that after she moved no one was nice to her
people would throw things at her call her names
and she just didn't uderstand why people would do that to others
she prayed* everyday asking what had she done to deserve it.
it wasn't untill she met us that she realized she had done nothing at all
she just had to find the right people.
|
|
|
[Thursday||February 1st, 2007 @ 10:24pm] |
|
i hate feeling unimportant.
|
|
|
[Saturday||January 27th, 2007 @ 11:25pm] |
so you know that saying
"hate me or love me it's still an obsession*"..
i can't help but want to see her fail
maybe it's just my way of saying
"ha you were wrong about him and he
is an amazing boyfriends and if you weren't
fucking psycho you'd still have him.."
or maybe it's just me wanting to be a bitch.
i dont know
but i really hate to see her happy
and i'm pretty sure that not healthy on my part
|
|
|
[Wednesday||January 24th, 2007 @ 11:20pm] |
alrighty..so i've come to realize why girls act the way they do
at first i just didn't see it. I just didn't get why they did
certain things...and now i know. i know now that there's something
about a boy that makes a girl want him to be her life.
wether it be good or bad..
It's a feeling of reasurrance*.
It has something to do with the way they make us feel.
Id always here about these girls trying to get pregnant
just to keep him in her life..
and the things they do just to get that little bit of attention
and i never got it...
until i met mark.
okay i love him but if he broke up with me would i be okay?
If he decided to knock the shit out of me would i leave him?
and what scares me is i know each one of those girls thought
of those questions..and replied with a " i'd leave him."
or " i'm to young to get pregnant."
But that shit is real...as scary as it is..it's real.
And it makes me wonder just how stong of person i would be
and would i be able to handle it if something ever really happened
between us. I mean what would i do? I'm not one to just cut myself of
from someone. I'm always the one that trys to make it better,
Or puts to much into something to find that it's came up short on the other end.
When i needed him the most he was there. and i think he's someone that always will be,
But stuff just really make me wonder
and it really makes me think
|
|
|
[Monday||January 22nd, 2007 @ 9:43pm] |
honestly i look at you and laugh
your not as happy as you say you are
your not as great as you think you are.
you have nothing to give anyone
for the simple fact that you are nothing.
but at the same time..
i can't help but envy you
i can't help but want what you use to have.
is that wrong of me?
|
|
|
[Saturday||January 20th, 2007 @ 6:59pm] |
honestly I'd have to say that i'm happy
i truly am happy
she acted as though he were horrible
but at the same time she wanted him...
i just dont understand people
that's why i hate them
if he was soo terrible then why
still want him.
why still put me through hell with you
calling him saying you'll kill yourself
if he stopped talking to you. i just dont get it
i dont care how long ago that was..i wont forget.
...
|
|
|
[Sunday||December 24th, 2006 @ 12:42pm] |
|
|
|
[Wednesday||November 22nd, 2006 @ 2:50pm] |
 Layout made by christina
|
|
|
[Tuesday||September 19th, 2006 @ 12:35am] |
|
|
|
|
[Sunday||July 9th, 2006 @ 5:45am] |
|
i love you all ....by the way
|
|
|
[Monday||June 26th, 2006 @ 8:48am] |
cause i'm bored and i'm working on putting
pictures on my myspace
|
|
|
[Sunday||April 16th, 2006 @ 4:48pm] |
|
i love you all
|
|
|
[Sunday||April 9th, 2006 @ 8:26pm] |
I made cheerleader
3rd year in a row
****************************************************************
I'm at Marks' house which has been
fun I've been here all day.
But yeah I made cheer
aren't you happy for me
^__^
|
|
|
[Saturday||April 8th, 2006 @ 10:21am] |
Cheer tryouts TODAY
In the fieldhouse at the
high school. It's two dollars
if you want to go. It's from like...
1 to 4 but they lie.
It's not really that long.
I can't wait
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
x__untitled_xx's journal
